Friday, September 24, 2010

Hangin'...


Only the memories linger
from the days we were together

Is erasing you
the only way to go on living?

Memories sprung up in my mind
from the days we were together

Is sending you away
the only way to go on living?

but

I still love you,don't go away
You will leave me all alone
please don't go..

Like a fool
i still live for you
Where are you?
I need you so much

Please stop &&
come back now
Just tell me
this is just a joke.

As much as the pain,
as much as the exhaustion,
I will try to forget && erase you but
there you are,still in my mind..

I know you are hurting as much as i am
I know you are tired as much as i am
Just come back to me,my baby..

Forever you..


What a cruel world..We have so much to lose.
&& what we have to learn,we rarely choose!
If i was weak,
forgive me but i was terrified

You brushed my eyes
with angels wing
full of love,
the kind that makes devils cry

Making up love
is all i wanna do with you
&& everything that i do
is out of loving you

Everyday of my life
is filled with loving you
this whole love that im feeling
i want you to see

there's no one but you
you are my forever lover
you are my world,my forever love
I Love You!

Alternative plan is not that bad.. ^_^


Ok,i was cooking dinner nang bglang naubusan aQ gas!Bastos!Hehe..Gosh,txt agd ang lola sa mga lpg dealer and thank god close na clang lahat!&& ano nmn gagawin Q?Di nmn pedeng magsiga aQ sa labas para dun magluto,maxiado atang embarassing un noh..Whehehe..
So,e2 nakipagtitigan sa halfcooked Qng tinola,but kinalabit aQ ng rice cooker..Napaisip aQ "why not?!"Hehehe..So i made salang the sabaw sa rice cooker and whoalllaa!,kumukulo na xa now..at luto na..Yes,tinola,done..
Now ang problema Q,ang pagprito ng manok!Aw pahirapan to,need Qng damihan ng mantika ang kaldero ng rice cooker,sus,ang siste konti nlng din mantika Q,nu ba yan,alang mautusan na bumili sa tindahan..Hai,keri na to,prito ever na din khit konti lng ang mantika..
Hmmmn,makakaraos din ata to sa tingin Q,and cool!!Bilis naluto ng pritong manok Q..Whehehe!
Sus,napaisip aQ,thanks at nauso ang rice cooker,big help din pla,soooo useful,whehehe!!
Sensya sa picture,mukhang hndi masarap ang pagkakaluto,im not a good cook,now what?!Im trying my best nmn eh,Whehehe.. =p

Is this still a dream?!?


I remember I went to sleep late that night,feeling uneasy && had a very sad dream...
The phone started to ring in the morning,breaking the silence && the premonition became a reality..
Leaving an unfading scar on my heart;You became a star by yourself...

"Goodbye"You have gone to the place where we can never meet again.Still,I can't accept the coldness of this eternal parting...
&& how I wish I could have heard from you that I had been certainly loved by you,only once,even if it had been a lie...
I had thought that this could be endless but now came to an end..Now,the season has changed,I feel bitterly cold,so cold,can't feel anything && now the sky kept on weeping for me this year...

I will never forget that first day that we met..I feel as if I were living in the continuation of the dream.. i can't even cry now..

"Take care"Even my last words won't reach you.I'm made to realize the coldness of this parting thing..but・・I wish I could have heard from you that you never regretted the days we had spent together...Just once i want to hear it,even if it had been a lie,i don't care...All i care is that i really loved you..

but..
the reason i couldn't say "goodbye" properly was that
i got a feeling that i'd see you again or....

Though its true,i spend some nights feeling so sad,like there's a tightening in my chest that leaving me an empty feelings that i cant bear to understand..But if i just think of you,i always end up thinking that my heart has a meaning to live..

I expect nothing special from you..it's just please let me love you this way..
Stay loving you forever..
Haiszxt...


Why did you do it this way?!Leaving me memories to the very end?Please tell me this is only a story of the continuing dream && that I'm not yet awake....

Until that day...


I can't yet end up,I can't stop...
I've always got it over in such way, haven't I?
If I throw it out and turn my back
It's rude to the tears I shed all the time, isn't it?!..

I don't care at all.
Whenever and however I may sell this body by piece
But I never give over my heart alone to anyone else..

When there are days that sometimes I think that until when and for what purpose
I just have to keep on going forward this way..Even its hurting me?!
But i know you are watching me.

...It's not so simple, I don't care even if I look a laughable.
It's uninteresting to live only for myself..

Some person thinks as if they knew everything about me,
Just after we smiled and talked a little together..But
They had a big mistake.
The reason of this smile and the meaning of this word,they can't be understand
Because I don't even want to make them understood..

It can't be helped..Indeed, no one knows about the real me more than you..

You know,If I run out of this place some day I'm sure they will wave their arms with satisfied looks; i'm sure they will nod quietly without asking..

...But till that day I ask you for keeping on watching me.
Until that day ...

because....

because...

I was dreaming a happy dream that I was sleeping in your arms.
Then I woke up && noticed my loneliness,&& started to cry.
The faded sofa,the 2 cup set,&& the too-wide bed.
I'll get rid of them sometime..
Even though I knew, even though I slept alone,
The song we liked, the movie we saw,
Without forgetting, still somewhere
I was expecting them tomorrow.
But Then I tried calling you just once.
There's a woman who answered with a nice voice.
Now it's clear, the fingers that stroke my hair,
the voice that's calling my name dearly, are already far away.
Those Laughing together, bumping into one another,
together the dreams we believed && hoped are gone.
Now I'm alone.

no words can say..


Surely as we live we will know more.
&& as we live we can forget..
Things that begin always have an end.
Think always on that,so we can live on..
In this world we're split into winners & losers..

But I'd rather be a loser.I always want to be a loser..
We are more beautiful when we're sad.(That's only my opinion..Hehehe..)

To protect us and ours,we must sacrifice something yet again.

What can I tell you?I'm just a small, helpless person.
That's all I'll say for now because sometimes words
are completely powerless.. (Bow!Hehehe!=P)

Do what makes you happy..


If you're feeling anxious as which way to go in your life,take time for yourself,get away someplace.Let yourself go,set yourself free!
Look deep into your soul && ask yourself what would really make you happy.
Dont go in a certain direction because you feel you have too,or because you planned on it for years..Sometimes it takes a long time to know what you want.Go for a long walk,sit by a fire,gaze out over a lake,go where you will find some inspiration.Try new different things.
Finding out what you were meant to do isn't about how much money you could make or who you might please.
You have to please yourself first,you have to love yourself enough to seek out that which gives you the most pleasure.
Eventually you will find what makes you happy.It is worth the time that it takes to find it,we are worth the time..^.~
True happiness must come from within us.Happiness cannot come from without.it must came from within.It is not what we see && touch or that which others do for us which makes us happy;it is that which we think && feel && do,first for the other fellow && then for ourselves.We will find happiness by letting our conscience guide us,listen to it;follow it.Our conscience is the key to our happiness..

You just dont know..

Hay naku life tlga,bonggaxious ever!..
Kahit sabihin mo pang me bumubuhay seu,sa crisis ba naman ngaun kelangan mong magtipid to the highest gravity level!Kalokah!!Minsan naloloka na tlga aQ sa buhay kung papano ang ganito,ang ganyan..
Minsan gusto Q nang mag-give up pero yoko dahil bka tigok lng kahihinatnan Q,yoko munang pagpyestahan ng uod sa ground ever!Hahaha!
bakit kya di nlng pwedeng maging madali ang lahat noh?!Para ala nang problema && infernesz kpag binanatan kpa ng problema,dadami ang mga wrinkles sa fezz at another problem na nmn kung papano kukuha ng gagastusin mo sa pang-facial dahil kapag pumangit ka,iiwanan ka nmn ng jowatot mo!Hay...Hehehe!
Alam nyo ba na pag natutulog aQ eh nakasmile konti kc sabi nla pag ganun daw nababawasan ang pagtanda,at aQ nmn c lukaret naniniwala at gnagawa Q tlga infernez!Hahaha!Minsan nga nagtataka cla kung bakit aQ nakangiti habang natutulog,guess what?!Ang cnasabi Q nlng na nananaginip cguro aQ ng mgnda at masaya,nakakahiya nmng kung ang sasabhin Qng "para mabawasan wrinkles Q!",Oh db,bongga!?!Hehehe!
Im dying inside but i keep on surviving at ang themesong Q na ata ngaun eh ung "I Will Survive"!Hahaha!
Akala tlga ng iba ala aQng problema dhl di daw nakikita sa fezz Q at blooming always ang lola nyo pero ang di nla alm,katakot-takot na kagagahan nang pinaggagawa Q para di magmukhang problemado ever at mapreserved ang looks!Anjan yung nangati at nagka-allergy aQ sa hinayupak na white yolk ng egg!Hehehe!
OMG!!Ang hirap pla tlga ng buhay,akala Q dati pag lumaki na aQ magkaroon ng sariling life masaya at alang problema yun pla eh,kaliwa't kanan na problema ang kakantot seu,grabeh,khit para ka nang lantang flower,cge pa din ng cge ang nakanang problema sa buhay!Hahaha!
Gusto Q na ngang sumigaw ng "DARNA" eh para nmn maiba ang takbo ng life Q pero di Q nmn alm kung san makakabili ng bato ni darna!Hahaha!
Hay nakakalokang life,kailan mo kya aQ bibigyan ng bonggang-bonggang swerte at hassle free ticket of life?!Alam Q di lng aQ ang naloloka,marami tau,aminin!Hehehe!
Lets pretend nlng na sumasakay tau sa roller coaster kaso nga lang ang problema eh ayaw pang umakyat ang hinayupak na rollercoaster!Whehehe!

Take time for every dream.


It is important to have dreams...to have something you are working toward at all times.Those dreams can be as small as finishing the book you've been reading for a month or as big as making a career change or moving to a new city.
Not every goal you set will be attained,but if you set a variety of goals,the ones that you achieve will bring a great feeling of satisfaction,&& the ones that don't...well,they will just keep you reaching for more.
Remember that taking time for your dreams means taking time for you.Nurture && ground yourself.Try to find satisfaction in everything you do.Stop rushing around;it doesn't get you anywhere.Truly think through your actions,&& always aim for the targets that keep your wheels turning && you moving forward.Live the life that will make you happiest..every moment of every day.
(setting goals is one of the most powerful ways to create the life you really want.People with goals succeed because they know where they are going.)
Face your fears..Fear is such a natural,instinctive feeling..But some fears come from a place that can't be explained.Logic doesn't register,i guess.Hehehe!
Well,improving your life && taking time for yoursef can mean working on the things that sometimes hold you back from realizing your dreams.Fears && phobias can be conquered.There are many methods:Theraphy,hypnosis,desensitization,anxiety madications...
The biggest step is to seek help.Make the leap necessary to start working past what's holding you back.
(avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure.Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.)
Take a minute too!For every hour you're awake,take a 60 seconds break,everyday.Set your watch to remind you every hour to go to a quiet place where you ca stand or sit,breath deeply,&& allow your mind to wander to thoughts that relax you.After a minute has passed,go back to what you wre doing bafore.You will feel energize && more relaxed!Consider it a quick charge for your mental batteries!
(If you sit down to meditate,even for a moment,it will ba time for non-doing.It is very important not to think that this non-doing is synonymous with doing nothing.They couldn't be more different.)

Live On A HappyLife..




"Look in the Bright Side"


When life seems overwhelming && you can't seem to get everything done..
When there isn't enough time to relax && enjoy..
When ther is a little reward for all your efforts && you wonder if it's all worth it,if this is what the future holds in store...
Try to keep a positive attitude
by looking for the little blessings that happen everyday yet often to go unnoticed.


Keep your mind open to humoruos situation,because humor can rescue you from being overwhelmed.
&& never forget that there are people who love && care about && support you through life's difficult times;people who think you're pretty special;people who care a whole lot about you..




"Live a life of happiness"



Happiness cannot come from without.


It must come from within.It is not what we see && touch or that which others do for us which makes us happy;it is that which we think && feel && do,first for the other fellow && then for ourselves.



Live so that you are at ease,in harmony wjth the world,&& full of joy.


Joy is not in things,it is in us..


True happiness must come from within you.
You will find happiness by letting your conscience guide you--listento it;follow it.
Your conscience is the key to your happiness..




"Do Not Regret From The Past;Learn From It"







Far away in the distant past lies the thought of the things that once were && how they have affected who we are today...

We regret the things we did not do && wish that we could change the things we did wrong...


We should look to the future instead..
We end up wasting our lives in remorse,&& pass right by all the good things that are happening in the present.If we look toward the future,we are sure to find at least some happiness that will make our lives worthwhile.

You can find comfort in the thoughts && actions around you.
They will help you get through the rough times && also rejoice with you when things are good.
Just look for the brighter days,&& you will get through life.
Many complications may arise,&& things will seem wrong,but stick to your virtues.
Hold your head up high so the whole world can see how special you are...

&& you will make it.


Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love && to work && to play && to look in the stars.

Carry with You..


Here's one of i want to share to anyone..


It really helps me to improve myself (not to be perfect) but to be a good && new me!Hehehe!!



Trust..that whatever happens,there is someone who will understand.
Honestly..the feeling that you never need to hold back.
Peace..in being accepted for who you really are.
Beauty..in outlook more than appearance.
Freedom..to be yourself, to change, && to grow.
Joy..in every day,in every memory, && in your hopes for the future.
Love..to last a lifetime, && perhaps beyond.
In all of what i've been through,I realized that life isn' always fair && we must accept what we must && change what we can.Think before i act because a moment of careless or anger can cause years of anguish && regret.Looking for the beauty in life,in people,in nature && in myself.Appreciating what i have;the people,the opportunities,the material pessesions.
Making effort to have fun;I found out that it's a great way to bond with others, && it makes some of the best memories. && Setting aside some time for myself,do something i enjoy without feeling even a little guilty..
For accepting everyone without judgement is also a happier things that i've done in my life..
Everyone is unique, && it's okay to be different!Never forget to forgive..Not forgiving cause bitterness && resentment hurt me more than the person i direct them at.
Learn..Learning can open our mind to new ideas && activities, && don't be afraid to try.
&& ofcourse,to dream..Make plans,believe in myself, && go for what i want!!I think that is the only way to keep adding to one's abilities,one's affections, && one's inner happiness..
Each day is filled with miracles that seem so commonplace that we sometimes forget to pause && appreciate the wonder of the moment.All the smiles we share--a miracle is created!
We sometimes forget that miracles are not just spectacular events that happen once in a lifetime.
Most miracles are smaller (as what they say && as i experienced!Hehehe)
The best ones of all are those that happen everyday && reflect love && hope for nature && humanity..I never forget to rejoice in small joy,it's just this simple;If you celebrate only the most spectacular events,you'll spend a lot of time waiting for happiness to find you..As what i'm trying to say is,It is really the best if you find the happiness!!


My Simple Rules In Love




When you love,NEVER stick only on what your heart feels..Remember that sometimes USING your brain is NECESSITY!
Next NEVER use your eyes to cry for the person who hurt you instead use it to SEARCH for the RIGHT ONE..
Lastly,DONT be SCARED breaking up,keeping a relationship without love is just a waste of time!
Take note,Love the one who will fight for you & bravely face each & every consequences…Someone whom you can call MINE rather than IDEAL!
Hehehehe!!

Promise!Hehehe!


Today ala naman aQng maxiadong activities(Hay,as usual,except ang manuod ng TV/DVD, or mag surf sa internet..
But di tulad ng mga usual days Q sa life,nagpapraktis na nmn aQ magluto(it's just unusual na aQ ay magluluto,eversince,tamad aQ,always go to the restaurant lng lalo na nung mag-isa lng aQ sa japan,as in,puro sa labas kung kumain!)..Nagluto aQ ngaun ng adobo(1 of my fave)..Pero sad to say,di xa masarap!Maalat ever!Hahaha!
Hay naku,sa araw-araw na ginawa ng diyos,once in a blue moon lng mape-perfect at magustuhan ng mga "tester" Q ang aking pinaghihirapang iluto!(infairness,khit aQ,di din nasasarapan!Hehehe!)
Pero i never giving up on the things that i loved and like to do for my loveones!
Pero madyo nakakainis lng,di tlaga aQ tumatama sa cooking..but..



I promise to myself to dream more && hesitate less(Try && try lng beauty Q!Hehehe!).
To believe in myself more && judge myself less by the accomplishment of others(I know i can make it!).
To appreciate my family && friends for all the wonderful ways they make my life better(without them,where would i be,db?!Hehehe!).
A promise to myself to accept life as it comes && truly make each day special.(Kahit puro kapalpakan ang nangyayari!hehehe!)
To become more independent && more willing to change.
To fill my life with with special times, && make my dreams come true(I will survive!Hahaha!).

10 Things to Remember..

Here's some things that i had read about today,from Donna Fargo..It's quite interesting && i want it to share with you guys..
Ten Things to Remember When Your Feelings Have Been Trampled On
1. Whether it' a family member,somebody at work,or your best friend who's hurt you badly,put yourself in their shoes && treat them the way you would want to be treated even if they don't deserve it.
2. If you've heard something you didn't want to hear,remember it may not be 100% true.So lighten up.If it's not urgent,put off thinking about it for a couple of days.Forgive the person who wronged you;don't forget,you're doing this for yourself ,too.Try to be understanding of others as you would want them to be of you.
3. There will always be losers && winners.Act according to how you want to feel about yourself when all is said && done.Don't judge what others do if you don't want them to judge you.
4. Remember,what other people do is their responsibility.Don't let them cause you to carry a grudge && let their actions weigh you down.They are not responsible for your actions,no matter what they do,You are.
5. If someone has said something untrue about you or done something intentionally to hurt you,wish good things for that person--even if you don't feel like it.Ask for them what you desire for yourself, && it will draw those things to you.
6. If you made mistake or disappointed yourself or others,apologize quickly && earnestly;that's all you can do.Let your remorse teach you how to have compassion for others when they make mistakes,Nobody is perfect,even though we all try to be.If someone can't accept your apology,that's okay,too.
Just do the right thing && go on.
7. Talk less && listen more;you could learn something about others && about yourself.If you feel like yelling,go outside && throw rocks on the cement instead.Take a walk or,better yet,sing..it will put a melody back in your life.
8. If you think someone is making fun or you or someone you love,disarm them,not with your fist,but with your best smile.Give them something they don't know how to give.Speak to them;be bold.Ask that they be blessed && you'll be blessed,too.Forgiveness is a powerful thing;it will help your body && soul.Don't let anyone cause you to act the way they've acted toward to you, && remember that they have a right to do whatever they choose also.
9. Don't hide your hurts && pains && feelings inside where they will harden your heart.Use common sense && understanding to process them.Don't react just from your feelings;respond with maturity rather childish habit.You won't regret it.
10. Get in touch with the person you want to be & become that.Listen to your heart..you can find the answer there to every question you have.Remember,no matter how you're treated,just treat others the way you would want to treated when your feelings are getting trampled on.

" Hang in There "


Difficulties arise in the lives of us all.Like me,i have many difficulties;in my every day living,every decisions i made && in every path i take..
What is the most important is dealing with the hard times,coping with the changes, && getting through to the other side where the sun is still shining just for you.

What i'm trying to say is i deal with difficulties/problems everyday in my life neither you are..&& i mean It takes a strong person to deal with though times && difficult choices.But i guess,we are a strong persons.It's just take courage..But we must posses the inner courage to see us through.It takes being an active participant in our life,but we are in the driver's seat, && we can determine the direction we want tommorow to go in.&& everytime i have difficulties,like today,im feeling lost && damned again (even how many books im reading about being positive && having a happy life,hehehe!) still life's still bugging me,&& trying to make fun at me (& i think i might loose my mind again if i will take them seriously!Hehehe) i just say to myself "Hang in there..and take care to see that you don't lose sight of the one thing that is constant,beautiful, && true;Everything wil be fine.."

I'm sharing this things because i know i'm not just the one who is out there coping with difficulties in life && i know by sharing this,it may helps you too (not too much but kind of?!Hehehe!Seriously,a little && lights a bit of our burdens in every days consequences),just like me who is once lost hope,faith && trust to myself..This is just the way im helping myself to be strong;reading,learning from the past and in writing..They see me as "the happy go lucky woman"but they just dont know who i am inside..Just the few of them knows who i am really inside && how much burden i carried here in my heart..Guess what,Im not that strong woman && as independent as what I seems,i just don't want them see how weak && dependent i am because i want to be one of examples to my family;anybody,a good && strong one that can organize problem to one another problem with at ease in mind && not giving up things..I want them to see me that i'm strong in dealing life despite of all the problems that i'm facing with especially to my mom who is from the start of her life struggles many phases of difficulties in life,i want to give her credits && reassure that now i'm here,more mature,there's nothing to worry about..

So..I'm hoping that to those who can read this post of mine can have time to posses their inner courage to face the difficulties in life because it really needs courage to see us through.
Beggining today && lasting a lifetime through--Hang in there, && don't be afraid to feel like the morning sun is shining..just for you.

Hima!!!


Ang hirap namang maging "hima" (walang magawa)..
Puro nlng Yosi,TV,DVD,Kung hndi nmn nasa harap lng ng computer..
Ano ba nmang life toh!Madali na mahirap..
Nami-miss Q na tuloy ang magtrabaho sa "omise" (or should i say,sa club!Hehehe)Atleast kahit stressed ka sa mga pasaway na tumer,nalilibang ka nmn...

Kahit bugbog ka na sa kakapalusot sa mga tumer,masaya nmn dahil natatalo Q sila sa pautakan..Hehehe!
Frankly,I miss my job kahit na sabihing "pangit" daw at "mababa" ang aming work bilang "japayuki"..


Sabihin na nating meron talagang "ganun" na talagang kumakapit sa patalim,but we still respect each others pa din kasi alam naming meron silang strong reasons for what they're doing at alam na nila ang kanilang gnagawa(Matatanda na kami noh para pangunahan,we listen sa mga advices but still it's our decision if we will take it or not..Instead put yourself in our shoes nlng kaya?!Hehehe!)..(Sana ganun din ang mga ibang tao jan na me respeto sa iba kahit ano pa man ang status nila sa buhay..)Hehehe!


Ano kaya ang magandang gawin pag ala ka nang magawa sa buhay mo noh?!Can't say that i'm alive kasi para na lang aQng robot na everyday,same chores nlng ang ginagawa Q..Can't regret this kind of life that i have but nakakasawa din..Masarap pa din yung magwork ka for yourself && makipagpatintero ke kamatayan para me thrill!!Hehehe!
Ewan Q ba,sadista ata aQ at gusto Q yung risky na pamumuhay,example na lang ang magtrabaho sa omise,akala nyo ba madali lang yun?!Risky ata yun kc pag once na mabuking kang niloloko mo sila baka ma-samurai pa ang beauty mo..Pinaka-easy na ung mawalan ka ng tumer(Tulad Q nagpapalamig dahil sa dami ng gustong gumanti sa beauty Q dun sa dati Qng pinagtatrabahuan!)..Taguan-pung muna kasi aQ ngaun wheh!Hehehe!
Hay,ang hirap maaging robot,la man lang ibang pwedeng gawin..Di ka din pwede makalabas ng bahay dahil me " bulldog " na nakabantay..Ano ba talaga pwedeng gawin pag ala kang magawa at nasa walang kabuhay-buhay na bahay ka lang?!Hehehe!!
Perfect Sense - Myspace Quote Graphics

Freak On a Leash



Somethings take a part of me,
something lost and never seen..

Everytime i start to believe,
something riped and taken away from me..

Life got to always messin' with me,
can't they chill and let me be free..

Can't i take away all this pain,
i try to everynight all in vain..all in vain..

Sometimes i cannot take this place,
sometimes its my life i can't taste..

Sometimes i cannot feel my face,
you'll never see me fall from grace..

Something take a part of me,

you and i were meant to be.. a cheap fuck for me to lay..

Somethings takes a part of me,
feeling like a freak on a leash..

Feeling like i have no release,
how many times have i felt diseased?

Nothing in my life is free..Is free..

Advice about Love..


1.for _SINGLES_
Love is like a butterfly,the more you chase it,the more it eludes you.But if you just let it fly,it will come to you when you least expect it..
Love can make you happy but often it hurts,but Love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.So take your time and choose the best..


2.for_NOT SINGLE_
Love isn't about becoming somebody else "perfect person".Its about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be..


3.for_PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE_
Never say "i love you" if you don't care..Never talk about feelings if they aren't there.Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.The cruelest thing a person can do to another gender is to let them fall in love when they doesn't intend to catch them fall and work both ways..


4.for_MARRIED_
Love is not about "it's your fault",but "I'm sorry"..Not "where are you",but "I'm right here"..not "how could you',but "i understand"..Not "i wish you were",but "I'm thankful you are"..


5.for_ENGAGED_
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other..


6.for_HEARTBROKEN_
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go..The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them..


7.for _NAIVE_
How to be in love?!Fall but don't stumble,be consistent but not too persistent,share and never be unfair,understand and try not to demand,and get hurt but never keep the pain..


8.for _POSSESSIVE_
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
.
9.for _AFRAID TO CONFESS_
Love hurts when you break up with someone..It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea on what you feel...


10.for _THOSE STILL HOLDING ON_
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.If she/he isn't worth it now he/she's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now..Let go...

Oo nga anoh??hehehe..


Just surfing the blogger's blog when i stumble into one of the blogger's blog..(panalo sa blog-blog)hehehe..
When i read her blog,napaisip aQ sa isang sinulat nya.."oo nga ano?!" yan lng nasabi Q..
Yah,like me,minsan naiinis sa mga papuri..Maganda aQ,cool to be with,me sense kausap,matured,positive,etc.,etc..Yah,nakakainis nga pla tlg,akala Q,aQ lng ang nakakaisip nun,meron din plang iba na naiinis sa mga ganun..
Yes,sumtyms,i hate myself for having "the looks" (as what they've said huh?!,hehehe..)Naiinis aQ kc sometimes i hate to go around,socializing kasi nasisira lng gabi or araw Q beacause of "indecent proposals" na lagi nlng nsa harapan Q,minsan napapaisip tuloy aQ,ano ba aQ pag me kausap,pag kausap or ano bang mga galaw Q?Am i that "galasagaw"" or "flirt"?!All i know im just friendly..I guess i better put some borders in it kasi nmn pti mga malalapit sa akin minsan naiinis na pla sa akin na di Q alam,nalalaman Q nlng thru others,kc jowa nla like aQ or kinakausap aQ?!Ano ba tlg mga sisters??Di nmn aQ ganun db?Para nmng di nyo aQ kilala,di aQ talo..Hehehe..
Tapos nmn pag me nakipagkaibigan seu na boyletz and let them be your friend,ang siste eh,manliligaw pla,di nmn sa pagmamalaki,i always encounter sa mga gnyang sitwasyon even though clear nmn sa knila na i dont need anyone or jowa,or kasyotaan noh,dagdag wrinkles nmn yan..Hahaii..Poz pag di mo cla pansinin sbhin seu suplada ka or mayabang?Nu ba tlg mga boyletz,kakawindang din kau ha,can't we just be friends,char!Whehehe..
Oo nga nmn,why do they keep on telling na saludo cla sa akin although i keep on telling them that my life is sooooooo messy,di na keri ng plantsa eh..Alam nmn nilang how hard my life is,how unhappy i am everyday,how bored my life is but they keep on telling that they adore me?!Minsan naaasar na nga aQ eh,is that a compliment or pang-asar?!Whehehe!But well,i take it as a compliment nlng para di madadagdagan wrinkles Q,hehehe..
Di nmn kc aQ ung taong akala nila eh strong,happy,or whatever..Im just being me..Is that makes me something different and they keep on telling me that im adorable??Whehehe..
If i am,why life keep messing me?Is it because im adorable to life din ba?Whehehe..Hay kalokah,dami din palang naaaliw sa sarili when someone compliments them,nakakawindang tlg at napapaisip ka nang "ows?Di nga,talaga?!" hehehe..Kasi nmn,kung aQ nga lng tlg,i want to be someone,hndi ung kung sino aQ ngaun,kung ano ang meron aQ ngaun (ala nmn aQng ibang "meron" kungdi problema lng nmn,hehehe..)..
Hmmmn,this makes me think to see deeper into myself kung ano ba yung type nila sa akin na ni sarili Q nga di Q pansin?Hmmmn...isip-isip..... ^_^

You were..again..



The lovers I pass are walking shoulder to shoulder
I feel it's biting cold, because you are not here
I was shining, because I was in love
I was so carried away that I even forgot the seasons and needed nothing else but you

I thought you were my last person
I wanted my love for you to be my last one
What on earth should I
think of ?
All alone under such a vast night sky ?
I'm thinking again by whose side you are smiling now
I wonder how much time will pass until my suffering ends

The thread of the dream you were talking about sometime
That line you always said
It's easier for me to forget them all, isn't it?
But I don’t want to forget a single one

The moment I'm surrounded by silence
I'm hit by the memories, too tender and warm..

Hurt me bad..


Hello blog!Just want to share something na nakadurog tlg sa hart Q..When im on my way to mall,i saw some street childrens,ung isa parang me malaking paso pa sa paa at tlgng bukang buka pa ugn sugat,naawa aQ at binigyan Q xa ng money sabay sabing "bili ka ng gamot jan sa sugat mo ha",maya maya bumalik,shucks nanghingi ulit ng money kc some of the street children took it or cguro kuya nya o ano,binigyan lng xa ng 10 pesos,bibigyan Q sana kaso my nephew told me na wag na,tlgng gnyan daw ang mga yan,well,sbgay totoo nmn kc i gave only to 1 child poz bglang nagsilapitan lahat,shucks again,ubos ang barya Q,whehehe..
Then nung pauwi na kmi i saw another one,na nakahiga sa gilid ng daan,sleeping!God,bkit merong ganun?Naiinis aQ sa mga magulang nila,di nmn pla nla kayang asikasuhin at alagaan,bakit pa cla nag-aanak or why can't they do something for their child/childrens..Naaawa tlg aQ sa mga bata,and dunno cguro dhl na din sa pangungungulila Q sa mga junakis Q kya madali aQng madala pagdating sa bata tlg..
Yung iba sinisisi sa government kung bakit cla naghihirap at naging ganun,but come to think of it,naghihirap na nga bakit need pa nilang mag-anak or kung di man nla naiwasan,sana nag isip-isip din muna cla,di nmn dapat kc lahat ng sisi eh sa government lng,sana naisip din nla na it's their life,they must attain it first hndi ung iasa nlng sa iba,lyk sa gobyerno or whatever..Sa dami ba namng tao sa pilipinas,di rin yan maasikaso ng gobyerno..
Yah i think meron ding mga corrupt at mas inuuna ang sarili nla sa pagpapayaman na mga politicians,we can't do nothing with it,tau din bumoto sa knila eh,cla gnawa nating batas but we can do something for ourselves,for our childrens,sana nmn mag-isip nlng din tau nang ikakaganda ng buhay natin hindi ung tira nlng din ng tira poz pag nagkamali sa gobyerno or ibang tao ang sisi..Sarili lng nmn natin tlg ang ating masisisi db?Di yung welga dito,welga dun,bangayan ng mga politicians left and right..
Nasa ating mga sarili nmn ang simula ng pagbabago eh,if we are just thinking on our every decisions or moves,cguro kokonti lng ang naghihirap lalo nang mga bata sa kalye..Naaawa talaga aQ sa knila,kung mayaman lng din cguro aQ,gustuhin Q ding gayahin c Angelina Jolie at Brad Pitt na mag-adopt na din ng mga less fortunate childrens..Yes wala din aQng magagawa sa knila,i can just help them pabarya-barya but sana nmn,maibsan ung ganung tanawin na me mga bata sa gilid ng street natutulog or even paika-ika maglakad dhil sa laki ng sugat sa binti eh naglilipana pa din sa kalsada para manghingi ng barya-barya para pangkain nla..Nakakadurog tlg ng puso..
Honestly,habang sinusulat Q to,umiiyak aQ,naawa aQ sa knila but i can't do nothing kungdi mainis at tignan lng cla habang napapaisip..
Sana nmn matauhan ang mga tao sa pinas lalo na ung mga nsa "mahirap tlg" level na mag-isip muna bago mag-anak ng mag-anak..Kung maging ganun nlng man,papayag aQ sa abortion na maging law kaysa nmn iluluwal mo nga pero habang buhay nmn magdurusa ung bata,mas ok na ata sa knila na hindi nlng iluwal at isang sakitan lng,db?Aw,kung ano ano nalng naiisip Q,kasi nmn eh,nakakaawa tlg eh,di tlg nawawala sa isip Q..Kakabadtrip kumbaga..
Sana nmn tlg,magcng cla one day na maisip nla ang mga pinaggagawa nla sa knilang mga anak,kung naghihirap cla,sana nmn,they will stop na manganak pa at magkaroon ulit ng mga panibagong mga street childrens..
Kung aQ ang nasa katayuan nla cguro,di aQ manganganak pa.ayokong nang idamay pa ang sarili Qng anak,mas masakit atang makita Qng sarili Qng anak na nsa kalsada,bata pa grabe na ang hirap na dinadanas,will try to prevent it tlg muna,dami nmng methods jan na pupwede eh,punta cla sa mga health centers,magtanong tanong kung how kung di man nla alam,ala din nmng masama sa pagtatanong,it means more"pangmumulat sa mga mata" lalo na sa panahon ngaun,di lng tlg tau dapat umasa sa gobyerno,it must come within us first,tutal ala ka nmng maasahan sa gobyerno these days eh,dami din nlang dpt asikasuhin para umunlad ang pinas(sna nga lng tlg,umasenso na din ang pinas)..
Hay gulo ng mga pinagsasabi Q,hehehe,napaka-clever Q tlg,so clever that sometimes i don't know what im talking about,hehehe.. XD
Well,opinion Q lng nmn yan,if i were on their shoes.. hehehe.. ^_~

nothing much to do..


today is such a lame day for me..Just at my room,writing this blog entry while listening to my fave music..Have no energy to do anything,don't know why but it seems today is succcccccccccccccccccccccch a lazy and lame day for me...
Got tons of things to do such as cooking,need to get done my hair again,(again!Whehehe!)my nails,need to clean my room but i feel so lazy..Is it because of the weather today?(Sisishin daw ba ang weather?!Hehe..)
Well,just want to share what im listening today,it's the music from 60''s!whehehe,trip lng..then Abba and Carpenter's song,Moulin Rouge soundtracks,reminiscing the scenes of Moulin rouge''s movie..Tinatamad din kc aQng manuod ng dvd or tv,ewan Q ba,pti pagFB,tinatamad aQ...
Argh,this day sux!Got no guts to do anything but to be a bedridden!Whehehe..
Matutulog na nga lng aQ ulit,infernezz la pa aQng eat,di pa nmn aQ nagugutom..These past few days,ala aQng ganang kumain,nakakalimutan Qng need Q palang kumain kc di pa aQ lumalamon even once..
Ganito cguro yta tlg ang depressed,stressed,want to forget everything,pti pagkain ay nakakalimutan mo na..
最近いい事ないだよ。。なんか最近むかつくばかり。。
Every moment of my life these days is sooooo boring eventhough how hard i try to be happy and be back to my senses again,wala pa din,khit nung gawin Q,alang wenta!Hahaiiii..
Cge,sleep ulit aQ,ala tlg aQng ganang maglilikot ever!Whehehe.. =(

wala lng,hehehe..


Ola!!Well,di pa aQ maxiadong inaantok so i decide to write again sa aking blog diary,ito tlg ang past time Q ang magsulat,kung datirati eh sa diary book Q ngaun sa blogdiary na,tosyal!Whehehe,naki hi-tech na din lola nyo..
Hmmn,just done my late,late,late dinner..OMG,2:15AM na pla,heheh..Ang kinain Q lng the whole day is 3 pcs siomai and cola.Yepp,i love siomai too!Whehehe..
Sus un lng nilamon Q poz ngaun,sa late,late,late dinner Q nmn is 1/2 cup of rice at i slice of adobo na niluto Q..Maaga nmn aQng nagluto knina at nagutom but all of a sudden,bgla Qng nakalimutan ang gutom Q,ahm,siguro sa kakatikim sa niluto Q?!Hehehe,daming alibis,alang katapusan,hehehe.. =P
Kwento Q na nga lng kung ano nagawa Q today,well,wala!As in big wala!Whehehe..aw,just gone to salon to refix my curl,yes,dhl di xa kumulot nung unang pagpakulot Q kya sugod ulit sa salon para pakulot ulit at sa awa ng dyos,nakulot nmn xa,pero sna nmn paggcng Q tomoro eh kulot pa din xa at di straight ever,kalokah na ha...
One more thing,bumili pa aQ ng treatment for kulot kuno,para wet look xa always at di daw umalsa is my hair,echos!!Hehehe..Infernezz dollar,ang pambili ng bigas nauwi sa buhok,hmmmn,another lang days alang kainan ba ito?!Hahaha!Jokeness,di nmn aQ ganun ka-adik oie,khit lately eh ala aQng ganang kumain di Q pa din nakakalimutang magsaing at magluto ng ulam noh?!Depensa un sa loka..whehehe!
Hay kaloka tlg ang mag isa sa room noh?!Yung ala kang kasama na makausap man lng,gusto mong magpapapansin kaso alang audience kumbaga,hehehe..Hahaii..
Every choice and every step you make me cost tlg noh?!Sana someday it's gonna make sense,itong lahat ng ginagawa Q..
Haiszxt,matutulog na nga lng ulit aQ,tulog na nmn,hehehe..Parang feel Q nga maging c sleeping beauty eh para di Q maramdaman lahat ng problema sa life,at di madagdagan ang wrinkles Q dhl sa stress!!whehehe!
Cge,mornyt my blogdiary,sleep na me,bukas dpt marami aQng magagawa,kakahiya nmn kc eh,nagiging useless na aQ maxiado,hahaha!
Okis,signing off..Babushkie! =P

made a mistake..



Unintentionally i told you "i love you"..
In front of you i blurt out that "I Love You"

I was supposed to hide this feeling forever
but loving alone hurts me so bad..
There's alone i dream,hope && stare
It hurts so bad..

My heart makes a stupid mistake,what should i do?
A love that can't be,but however i can't block it..
Although i know it's painful but
my heart is so clumsy && was committed a love for you already.

I was not supposed to love again
because of the following..
Pain,grieve,after this
wanting,missing,waiting for someone &&
that is so hard..

Again and again I'm afraid of that
it would be painful,so my heart
will be broken and can't be used again..

My heart finally made a mistake again
I shouldn't love,not me
but eventhough how ard i tried to prevent this
cause i know it'll hurt..

What should i do?
It's like my tears cause trouble with no sense again
however i fight my tears back saying "i don't wanna cry again"
but i can't

It's like they cause trouble
telling me to bring you back along to see
not knowing it's you who doesn't even
lay his eyes on me....

Hangin'...


Only the memories linger
from the days we were together

Is erasing you
the only way to go on living?

Memories sprung up in my mind
from the days we were together

Is sending you away
the only way to go on living?

but

I still love you,don't go away
You will leave me all alone
please don't go..

Like a fool
i still live for you
Where are you?
I need you so much

Please stop &&
come back now
Just tell me
this is just a joke.

As much as the pain,
as much as the exhaustion,
I will try to forget && erase you but
there you are,still in my mind..

I know you are hurting as much as i am
I know you are tired as much as i am
Just come back to me,my baby..

Forever you..


What a cruel world..We have so much to lose.
&& what we have to learn,we rarely choose!
If i was weak,
forgive me but i was terrified

You brushed my eyes
with angels wing
full of love,
the kind that makes devils cry

Making up love
is all i wanna do with you
&& everything that i do
is out of loving you

Everyday of my life
is filled with loving you
this whole love that im feeling
i want you to see

there's no one but you
you are my forever lover
you are my world,my forever love
I Love You!

Hopeless Love


I still don't understand love...
so i cannot get myself closer to it.
But why does my foolish heart
keep pounding?

I'm haunted by you again and again..
I just can't get away.
This hopeless love
hurts my heart so much.

Going from day to night,
You're all i think about.
Being so pitiful and silly
What should i do?

They say,"Hearts follows love."
What am i really going to do?
My hopeless love
Really hurts my heart..

The day when the pain fades away,
Will that day will come?
Being pitiful and silly
What can i do after all??

The moonlight is so beautiful,
I just can't get away.
Let me lie down by your side for a moment,
a moment,just a moment....

For my On-Line friends!


Even online friends need to be told they're important to us..Yes i got tons of online friends whom i care and they also care for me even we are all miles apart and never seen each other personally..Justwant to thank them all by writing this simple && little poem of mine.. ^_^




We met online,thru gaming && nothing much..
At first we're hesitant on each other
but just like a lightning we feel comfortable to each other..

Till now we're all connected
but still as online friends..
&& i cherish it so much!

On our everyday conversation with each other,
I learned so much with you,
even know myself better..

Exchanging words, thoughts and
laughter even without seeing each other
ready on taking care for each other..

Even you and i are miles away
Im always grateful on having you
giving my life cool spices eventhough we're just "on-line friends"

On the internet,we all like castaways
never to get touch or hug by you but
this only i pray,that for someday we can meet
to hug and dance to the beat

what would life be
without a friend like thee
Thank you so much for always there..

Always there,giving me freedom,an unselfishly you listening to my boring stories,
and giving me strength ..
Love on waking up early
just to open my computer cause i know you are always there!

For now this is all i see
is my good friends with me
&& been so grateful on having you as a part of me..
^_^

Thursday, September 16, 2010

JAKIE

JACKIE 


ONCE UPON A TIME IN A LAND
NOT FAR AWAY, THERE WAS A GIRL
NAMED JACQUELINE WHO LOVED
ROMANCE NOVELS, FAIRY---TALE
SETTING AND LEADING LADIES IN
THEIR BILLOWY SKIRTS AND RUFFLED
GOWNS. SHE WAS BESOTTED WITH
THE MOST SCHMALTZY OF THINGS
----MIDNIGHT SERENADES, SECRET
RENDEZVOUS, AND....
CHUNKY HEELED PUMPS?
SHE WAS A STARRY---EYED
FASHIONISTA AFTER ALL, JUST LIKE
THE DANSELS IN HER STORIES. AND 
AWAY WITH HER PRINCE SHE WENT.






A FASHION SLAM BOOK

NEX

PRETTY TOUGH. MANNISH CHIC.
THE ANDROGYNY IS THAT PERSONA WITH A
CAPTIVATING MIX OF BOTH MASCULINE
AND FEMININE CHARACTERISTICS---A
BONA FIDE OXYMORON.
SHE'S POWERFUL IN THE WORKPLACE
BOLTING DOWN BUSTLING CORRIDORS, CLAD
IN TAILORED SUITS AND MONOCHROMATIC
HUES THAT ARE ANYTHING BUT LACKLUSTER.
AN EPICENE BEAUTY,  WE TELL YOU, TO BE
REKONED WITH. 


Wednesday, September 15, 2010

5 JUMPING THROUGH HOOPS LIKE A CIRCUS POODLE


"LET US NEVER NEGOTIATE OUT OF FEAR.'

4 DUMB LIKE A FOX


" I HAVE AN IDEA THAT THE PHRASE 

'WEAKER SEX' WAS COINED TO DISARM THE MAN SHE WAS PREPARING TO OVERWHELM.

3 THE CANDY STORE


HOW TO MAKE THE MOST OF YOUR FEMININE AND SEXUAL POWERS.



'SEX IS LIKE A SMALL BUSINESS..


YA' GOTTA WATCH OVER IT."

2 WHY MEN PREFER BITHCHES

"HAPPINESS? A GOOD CIGAR, 

AND A GOOD MEAL,

A GOOD CIGAR, AND A GOOD WOMAN___OR A BAD WOMAN.

IT DEPENDS ON HOW MUCH HAPPINESS YOU CAN HANDLE.

1 FROM DOORMAT TO DREAMGIRL

"SEX APPEAL IS 50% WHAT

YOU'VE GOT, AND 50% WHAT

PEOPLE THINK YOU'VE GOT."

TIP #3

BLOCK YOUR PHONE NUMBER


RESTRICTING YOUR PHONE NUMBER ISN'T JUST FOR PRANK CALLS ANYMORE.

TIP #2

THE FIRST 
PHONE CALL
RING...RING....RING....RING....OH MY GOSH, IT'S HIM!

THINK LIKE A GUY

THE TIPS


LOVE 'EM OR HATE 'EM.

AGREE WITH MOST AND DISAGREE WITH OTHERS.

EMBRACE THE ONES YOU WANT AND DISMISS THE ONES YOU DON'T LIKE .

BUT READ THEM AT YOUR OWN RISK.

THE RISK OF GETTING THE GUY YOU REALLY, REALLY WANT.

CONTINUE:




Tuesday, September 14, 2010

M.A.C. 2007 Beauty Icon Collection

M.A.C. 2007 Beauty Icon Collection

Given her career credentials and just all around fabulous attitudes on life, it's only fitting that M.A.C. would partner with her to launch the new Beauty Icon Collection, which will debut in stores in February. The collection is a full line of lip colors, eyeshadows, powders, blushes, and brushes, all inspired by the glamour of Ms. Raquel. And, what icon collection would be complete without false eyelashes. The colors are truly fitting for those days when you just ooze sex appeal but can also be worked into the normal everyday rotation.

The best part of the collection, and you know I can't leave out the best part, is the packaging. Everything comes in tiger printed tubes and compacts. I love, love, love that. How sexy is it to reapply your lipgloss from a tiger printed tube?!? Even on occasions when you must be demure, like in the office or at luncheons, these cosmetics can be that little touch of sex appeal that only you know about. Just like wearing sexy lingerie under a conservative suit.

For a picture of the full collection, try here, and for a full list of the colors and products in the collection, visit Spektra. Thanks to Janice over at Spektra for all the photos used here.